I .or. Me

So like 2 weeks ago, this dude i occasionally say hi to wanted to talk to me. Strangely, we've never actually had a real conversation, beside the "Oh hey there, wasup, how you doing, how's school, have you seen xyz". But guessing he was being friendly, i was like sure.. Here's a mini re-play just so you'll get an idea..

GuyX: "So how's school?"
Me: "It's making a fool out of me."
GuyX: *laughs* "I know what you mean. I see you at school a lot."
Me: "Really? Yeah well, I'm there everyday, so I expect you would."

I know, would be a disaster if he didn't get my sarcastic humour. Anyway...long story cut short..

GuyX: "I was hoping we could be each others companions."
Me: *Pretending not to understand*
GuyX: "I like you. And sometimes i get lonely. So i was hoping we could help each other out."
Me: "Oh. No, i have a boyfriend. And im sorry i can't say I'm sorry, I'm not really sorry about it."
GuyX: *laughs* "I get it, and i don't cheat either. But i have a girlfriend too back home. What they don't know won't hurt them right?"
Me: *laugh* I appreciate your concern about my boyfriend not getting hurt, but I'm more concerned about myself. What i do know will hurt me."

So maybe that sounded a little selfish, but i didn't mean it in that sense, although i meant what i said. Of course I wouldn't want to hurt my significant other, but is it really always about the other person? Had this guy, who didn't even know me, consider my character? What i condoned and disapproved? Not a clue. And no, this isn't me claiming to be a saint from the heavens, but this is me not condoning infidelity. Not only because  I'd be unfaithful to someone else, but mainly because I'd be untrue to myself. I think highly of faithfulness, be it in relationships, work, school, whatever. Lets call it what it is, a value.

Its funny how certain morals and values which we believe in and have in our lives to help shape our characters to become the people we want to be, are by some event (usually at our own hand) compromised to ironically subdue the entire purpose of making us better people. Like being faithful, which i believe is a very COMMON value "so-called" upheld by a lot of people. And don't get me wrong, this is beyond the boundaries of mistakes, people are human and slip-ups and mistakes are inevitable, but when we make excuses for not upholding our values by saying "What they don't know won't hurt them", we're trying to justify the wrong choice we made, we're really only hurting ourselves. We deprive ourselves of the opportunity to live up to what we believe in and eventually become the sort of person we envision ourselves to be. There's no mistake committed, but a crime.

The whole point of this isn't to discuss faithfulness, for it was the example that lately related to myself, its about "Values & Morals" in general, whatever it is in which you believe in.

There really is no halfway in your morals and values, you're either trying your best to uphold them while praying you don't flunk on becoming the person you want to be or making excuses to subdue them in the end.